We had several desires: work as a teacher, work as a social worker, or counselor, attend graduate school, start a family. There are times when having too many desires can cloud a vision.
I wrote an update letter to my principal, which was intended to announce our decision to resign after the term ends.
We were met with much questioning. I couldn't say our principal opposed us to leaving, though it felt like. In retrospect, he was guiding our decision making process. So over the next month, we backtracked our decision and became patient.
At this point in time, I had already applied to over a dozen schools with no response. I also applied to three graduate programs with no response yet. The silence was killing both of us - more for my wife as she knew she would be the only source of income if I was to go into graduate school. The stress of the wait cast a shadow of doubt - if both of us were to be completed rejected by Hong Kong, would it mean that we were meant to stay in Beijing? February and March were indeed dark times and we both struggled to find answers. For myself, I knew I was too sure of myself and was over-confident in the face of reality which was a competitive, job-scarce Hong Kong. Day by day, my six years of experience started to look more and more ridiculous as my selling point for employment.
The stress level reached a fever pitch during Qing Ming Festival (April), when my wife pursued a position she was quite interested in. We were both so sure of the chances she would land the job that she went off to HK on her own to physically attend the interview. While it was a great opportunity to spend time with her family, she ultimately did not get the job. However, while she was down there, I had received my offer to attend Polytechnic University. My acceptance wasn't quite the appeasement she was looking for, and since we had spent the past few weeks waiting, we decided to wait a little longer if another graduate school would interview me.
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